My Sleeves Are Stained Red, From All The Truth That I've Said ...

I woke up a little late, but got to school on time.  I was open first mod, and that was ok I guess.  Pretty much the whole morning was fine, until around 12th mod.  I was open and waiting for Alissa and she was taking foreverr and Marcus was singing to me and I mean it was cute but I just wasn't in the mood.  And then I just go really annoyed for waiting for her.  But she finally came so we went and sat down and stuff and yeah that's about it.  And I guess my school day wasn't bad, I was just kind of annoyed.  But then I got a text from Gennean that works and my dance studio asking me to teach for her, and I did.  It was fun!  The girls were pretty good at listening for the most part, my actual classes went well, too.  Then after dance I went home, and this is where it starts getting bad.  I drove home and I guess I was just kind of annoyed because it was like dark and I had to stop at like every damn light, and I hateeee it when that happens.. so yeah.  But then I got home, and I had my water bottle, keys, and phone in one hand.  I was walking through my gate and then... I dropped my phone.  Like, no big deal, right?  But I guess today would be the day that my damn phone would have to break.  It was really slow and kept freezing anyway, so hopefully when I go to BestBuy tomorrow the new one will be better.  Well I hope I can get a new phone, I will be pissed if I can't!  Especially since I'm pretty sure that screen problems is under the warranty...  So yeah.  That was my day.  Pretty shitty, and rather annoying.  But yeah.  Sorry for the rant... I hope you're guys' days were better...

Senior year.

It's a new dawn,

it's a new day,

It's a new life for me.

And I'm feeling good.

It's senior year.  I never thought it would come.  I turn 18 soon, and everyone knows what that means.  Freedom.  Or hopefully so.  Haha.  Anyways, you guys should check out my tumblr.  Http://www.cynthiaellenmcintyre.tumblr.com  It's not much, but there is some funny pictures on there.  I plan to get on there and reblog amusing photos, and maybe post some of my own photography and what not.  But I plan on using blogger to post my thoughts, and check up on others.  Because I've seen people blog about their feelings and stuff on tumblr, and it doesn't go over well.  So I plan on just putting pictures and stuff on there, and writing on here.  Like I am now, even though this is basically rambling.  Haha.  Oh well. 

So Classes started on friday.  My schedule went like this..

1 open: I hung out with Gavenn.. it was fun. :D

2 chem lg group: I sat in the wrong spot... but we talked about class rules and whatnot.  Kinda boring if you ask me...

3 4 pre-calc lg group: The teacher was really quiet and kinda weird.. all we did was go over the syllabus and did a pretest and got our books.  Still pretty boring.. :/

5 6/7 open: mod 5 I just walked around... I couldn't find anyone to sit with.  Then 6/7 I ended up sitting with Jordan Young and Jasmine Dorau because no one else was open... but they are pretty cool people so it's all good. :D

8/9 chem lab: We did a recycling of aluminum lab... pretty boring, but it went by fast and I finished it so I didn't have any homework, so that's a plus.

10/11 French: Sat with Dana, and she gave us a tour of the room and talked about some of the rules and what not, and didn't give us homework.  It was a pretty easy class.  But we didn't have any homework, which was nice. :D  But I'm dropping it next thursday, so It wouldn't really matter either way... Ha.

12 Humanities: Talked about the book, and had homework to read the Intro.  I just started doing it, and it is so boring.  The book sounded interesting when he explained it, but the introduction is really just so boring and it's long and I don't wanna read it.  Woah run-on sentence...

13 Intro to Computer Science: It was good but we really didn't do anything because our computers won't let us use future basic yet... hopefully it will tomorrow!

14 open:  I sat with Kaley and she ate a poptart.  I got on my computer for a little bit, but that's about it.

Then after school I met Alissa in the Math IMC before we left for the going away party.  It was for my friend Tori, who I used to dance with.  It was pretty fun.. but they didn't really talk to me... but its whatever.  Ha.  Then when we left, we went to her mom's house because her brother was having a party and we said we'd stop by.  Then my mom and sister Jenifer came and picked me up and we went to eat, even though I ate at Buffalo Wild Wings at the going away party.  I just got a bubble tea, which is like a smoothie.  And then after that we went back to the house and packed all of my stuff up for my senior pictures. 

 I brought a lot of stuff.. but it went really well and it was actually a lot of fun.  I had two photographers.  The younger one, Billy was really funny and he made me smile a lot with his stupid jokes that you just had to laugh at. :D  It was really fun.  I'll try and post my pictures once I get them.  :D

Well that's about it, but if I think of anything else I'll add it. :D

winterrr formall!

So I found two dresses today that I realllly like.

One is black and white zebra print with a red ribbon:

Do you like it?

I like it, but I can't decide between this and the other one..

The other one is white with purple sparkly polka dots:

I really like this one, especially the cut at the top.  But they only had a small, so it was really short on me.  I might go to oakview to see if they have a medium there, because the zebra one was a medium, and it fit me reallyyy well.  or if not, westroads had a large, so if the length is better I can always have my mom take it in for me.

So, which one do you guys like?

Let me know, via comment, text, or message. xD

by the way ;

Tom and I broke up.

I guess he couldn't trust me or some shit.

Oh well.

I honestly don't give a fuckk.

Without you, there's no reason for my story.

And when I'm with you, I can always act the same.

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It's happening once again.  I talk to you, and I immediately have feelings for you again.  It always happens.  I can't tell if you like me back or not, but it's probably a no, because it's always a no.  Except for when you had a girlfriend.  Sucks for me, I guess.  Why do you have to be like this?  You hang out with your whore of an ex girlfriend that you deny dating and told me you hated.  You wanna hang with me, but when we do, you completely ignore me.  It makes me feel worthless.  I mean I would totally hang out with you if I knew you would actually talk to me and do stuff.  But no... I can never tell with you.  It's so hard to deal with.  I saw you today.  It was nice.  I couldn't tell if you were happy to see me or not.  It sucks that you don't go to Westside anymore.  It makes me sad, to be honest.  I mean, I don't think about you, except for when I pull together the guts to text you, and then you reply, and it makes me that happiest girl to be alive.  I can't help you.  I'm pretty sure I love you, but I don't wanna say it, because I don't wanna seem like the obsessed ex girlfriend.  Fuck my life.  Maybe I should just push you outta my life?  Or maybe I should talk to you about this?  I don't know, but I do know that I don't wanna be disappointed once again.  Ughh this is so difficult.  I miss you, I hate you, I love you, I want to be yours, I think it's a bad idea, I forget about you, I talk to you, I like you again, I try not to, but I do.  Then I repeat.  I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.

I just texted you.  Hopefully you'll reply.

• JB ; ilyforever ; x3

• JBE ; ilyforever ; x3
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retro!

isnt this an aweesome picture?!?!

anyways.

im so bored!!!

but on the bright side, i finished my purse(=

its fucking amazing and lime green and zebra!

i cant decide if i want to use it as my purse/backpack yet or not.

I dont know if the straps are strong enough to be my backpack, and i think it might be to awkward to be a purse.

what do you guys think?

and yeah.

thats about it.

so...

whatre you guys doing saturday/sunday?

because i dont have any plans for saturday during the day, and i dont have any plans for sunday.

so we should definitely hang if you guys dont have any plans, okay?

okay.

but now im just rambling, so im going to stop before i humiliate myself.

11.22.09 ; <3

text: "So are we going out now?"

call: "of course!" "okay(:"

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My weekend was pretty fucking fantastic.

Here is how it went;

So friday was my moms birthday.  After school I went home and cleaned a little, and then my sister came in town.  Me, my brother in law, my other sister and my mom all went to Gorats.  It's a steak house if you didn't know.  it was pretty good.  My mom let me drive there and back. It was really fun, and I did a good job.  When we got home, we played Apples to Apples, which is a really fun game!  I really like it.  Jen won, but hell, she always wins.  And yeah.  That's pretty much all I did on friday.

Saturday my sister left to go to a conference in the Minnesota, but she's coming back for Thanksgiving.  Then I had to go to dance.  I was there by 9:30, like I always am, since I teach in the morning.  When I got there I found out that the lead teacher, Allie, was gone.  So Jenny came out and told me that I was teaching the two classes, and that I'd have an assistant for the first one, but not the second one.  Which wasn't bad.  I think I did a good job, with it being all on the spot and everything.  It was unfortunate though because I didn't have any rosters to know who was all there, or any notes.  I found them after awhile, but it was still kind of annoying since I didn't know exactly what I was doing.  So yeah this is probably really confusing.  My competition classes were fun.  We really didn't do anything different then normal though.

Then after dance I went home to get ready for my party.  KiKi and Alicia got there early, and we sat and talked.  Then they bailed to go on a "walk" which my mom was kinda mad about, but its whatevs.  Then after I showered and all that jazz people started getting there, and we made some pizzas and started doing our makeup and hair and crap.  Then we went on the scavenger hunt, and my team one!  It was bombbb(=  we went on the scavenger hunt till like 11.  Then once we got home, we sat around and started making another pizza, then jasmine had to leave.  Katie left halfway through the scavenger hunt, so I barely got to see her at all.  Then once Alissa got back from taking Jasmine home, we played the ten finger game, and talked and played truth and shit.  Then after awhile people started getting tired, so we kinda passed out, at like 2.  

On Sunday Alissa left at 7:15, and everyone slept till like, 10.  Then everyone but Des went out and watched Love Actually, which is a really confusing movie.  But it's still good, so you should watch it!  yeah.  And then Alicia left at like 11:30, and then Des and Jessie left at 12:40 because they had to be home at one.  KiKi's mom finally showed up around one, then everyone was gone.  I made the last pizza that was left, ate it, and then took a nap till like, 4.  Then around 5 I started getting ready to go see New Moon with Tom.  He got to my house around 6, then we went and sat in the movie theatre till 7:15, which is when the movie started. It was actually a good movie, I liked it a lot.  He held my hand through the whole movie, which was nice(= and yeah that's about it.  he took me home, kissed me, and yeah.  He told me he was going to fall asleep while he was driving, which is not cool, not cool at all.  He better call me today or he is in big trouble(= tehe.  so yeah.  He is my boyfriend, if you couldn't tell.

I had a really productive weekend, and it was really fun!  Hopefully next weekend is just as fun... (=