And when I'm with you, I can always act the same.
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It's happening once again. I talk to you, and I immediately have feelings for you again. It always happens. I can't tell if you like me back or not, but it's probably a no, because it's always a no. Except for when you had a girlfriend. Sucks for me, I guess. Why do you have to be like this? You hang out with your whore of an ex girlfriend that you deny dating and told me you hated. You wanna hang with me, but when we do, you completely ignore me. It makes me feel worthless. I mean I would totally hang out with you if I knew you would actually talk to me and do stuff. But no... I can never tell with you. It's so hard to deal with. I saw you today. It was nice. I couldn't tell if you were happy to see me or not. It sucks that you don't go to Westside anymore. It makes me sad, to be honest. I mean, I don't think about you, except for when I pull together the guts to text you, and then you reply, and it makes me that happiest girl to be alive. I can't help you. I'm pretty sure I love you, but I don't wanna say it, because I don't wanna seem like the obsessed ex girlfriend. Fuck my life. Maybe I should just push you outta my life? Or maybe I should talk to you about this? I don't know, but I do know that I don't wanna be disappointed once again. Ughh this is so difficult. I miss you, I hate you, I love you, I want to be yours, I think it's a bad idea, I forget about you, I talk to you, I like you again, I try not to, but I do. Then I repeat. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.
I just texted you. Hopefully you'll reply.
- JB ; ilyforever ; x3
- JBE ; ilyforever ; x3
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