but i dont feel like it. so im going to blog.
i dont know what i want to do. theres one boy that really likes me.... but i dont like him. i feel like i do sometimes... but whenever im with him im not happy. its like whenever he talks it pisses me off. i mean when were just talking its ok... but whenever he tries to get me to talk to him about us.. it makes me really mad. more mad then i thought i could get about a boy liking me. hes short.... which is another down fall. and i guess i dont know. it didnt work last time so why would it work this timee? i mean it might because he said he's changed... but i still dont want to date him. it would be too weird and it was awkward the last time. you know??
and on another note... i like this other guy. no, not jesse. someone else. and im not going to say who because i dont want to be judged. hes a senior... kindof a downfall. he talks dirty all the time... a MAJOR downfall. he never has money... but im just kidding i dont care haha. xD and yeah. i mean hes cute and sweet usually and i feel like if we were dating he wouldnt talk as dirty unless we were like around his friends.... but yeah. i dont know. plus ive had people tell me he wouldnt be a good boyfriend... so i dont know.i might change my mind... but yeah. and i never see him and i emailed him but he didnt reply... hmm. ohh well hahahaha. well see what happens.
and as for jesse... i still like him. but i feel like i might give up. i dont think he likes me... and he doesnt flirt with me. he actually flirted with me more when he HAD a girlfriend. thats messed up, rightt? but its whatever. i mean i dont really care and if anything happens then hey, ill go for it. but as of now he wont do anything and doesnt like me so i dont even want to try anymore.
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