i took his ring off today.

but i still cant help but love him.  hes got the smile, the personality... and god even the fucking body.  he makes me smile.... and and i cant help it.  i know i shouldnt love him, i really shouldnt.  he says i feel like  a sister to him.... and i dont even know how thats possible considering i flirt with him all the fucking time.  but i guess its not meant to be.  but god i wish it was.  some people might think im acting immature, or thinking to hard about this.  but i cant help it.  i never got over this boy.  even though ive had three boyfriends since him.  i dont know what it is.  but when i see him i get this feeling like ive never had before.  hes the only boyfriend thats ever bought me anything, or showed me that hes cared.  hes really even the only one thats said i love you to me, and meant it.  and i didnt have to say it first.  he told me he didnt care what his friends thought, that he was going to stay with me forever, even though all of his friends wanted him to break up with me.  i know i told him to break up with elyssa, but that was because she was physically hurting him.  if he actually liked her, but i didnt like her, i wouldnt want them to break up, because im not that kind of person.  and honestly... when we were dating i didnt even intentionally hurt him.  i mean i racked him, but because i have a naturally boney but and i sat down to hard one time):  i really didnt mean to...... :p

so yeah.  thats pretty much it.  i love you, kid, and i hope to god youve realized it.