rushing and racing and running in cirlces.

why does it have to be this way?

i miss him.

i dont want to miss him.

it makes me mad that i miss him.

i shouldnt.

hes usually an ass to me and doesnt listen when i try to give him advice on being a better person.

ugh it bothers me so much.

he sent me an email just now, telling me he was at the alternative.

and i almost started crying.

i dont know what it is about him.

i dont know why i keep falling for him.

i dont want to fall for him.

i really dont.

i mean maybe if he was actually a good guy and treated me right...

but no.

i mean hes nice..

but he doesnt "like" me.

he only "like"d me when he had a fucking girlfriend.

then once they broke up, i felt like a sister to him.

fuckkk.

oh well.

ill figure it out eventually.

but now.

lets party(: